this make me burst into tears :'( hurmmm ~
Hi, Mommy . I’m your baby . You don’t know me yet , I’m only a few weeks
old . You’re going to find out about me soon , though , I promise . Let me
tell you some things about me . My name is John , and I’ve got beautiful
brown eyes and black hair . Well , I don’t have it yet , but I will when
I’m born . I’m going to be your only child , and you’ll call me your one
and only . I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly , but we have each
other . We’ll help each other , and love each other . I want to be a doctor
when I grow up .
You
found out about me today , Mommy ! You were so excited , you couldn’t wait
to tell everyone . All you could do all day was smile , and life was
perfect . You have a beautiful smile , Mommy . It will be the first face I
will see in my life , and it will be the best thing I see in my life . I
know it already .
Today was the day you told Daddy . You
were so excited to tell him about me ! … He wasn’t happy , Mommy . He kind
of got angry . I don’t think that you noticed , but he did . He started to
talk about something called wedlock , and money , and bills , and stuff I
don’t think I understand yet . You were still happy , though , so it was
okay . Then he did something scary , Mommy . He hit you . I could feel you
fall backward , and your hands flying up to protect me . I was okay … but I
was very sad for you . You were crying then , Mommy . That’s a sound I
don’t like . It doesn’t make me feel good . It made me cry , too . He said
sorry after , and he hugged you again . You forgave him , Mommy , but I’m
not sure if I do . It wasn’t right . You say he loves you … why would he
hurt you ? I don’t like it , Mommy .
Finally ,
you can see me ! Your stomach is a little bit bigger , and you’re so
proud of me ! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes , and you
were so so so happy . You sing to me , too . You have the most beautiful
voice in the whole wide world . When you sing is when I’m happiest . And
you talk to me , and I feel safe . So safe . You just wait and see , Mommy .
When I am born I will be perfect just for you . I will make you proud ,
and I will love you with all of my heart .
I can move my
hands and feet now , Mommy . I do it because you put your hands on your
belly to feel me , and I giggle . You giggle , too . I love you , Mommy .
Daddy
came to see you today , Mommy . I got really scared . He was acting funny
and he wasn’t talking right . He said he didn’t want you . I don’t know
why , but that’s what he said . And he hit you again . I got angry , Mommy .
When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt ! I promise to protect
you . Daddy is bad . I don’t care if you think that he is a good person , I
think he’s bad . But he hit you , and he said he didn’t want us . He
doesn’t like me . Why doesn’t he like me , Mommy ?
You didn’t talk to me tonight , Mommy . Is everything okay ?
It’s
been three days since you saw Daddy . You haven’t talked to me or
touched me or anything since that . Don’t you still love me , Mommy ? I
still love you . I think you feel sad . The only time I feel you is when
you sleep . You sleep funny , kind of curled up on your side . And you hug
me with your arms , and I feel safe and warm again . Why don’t you do that
when you’re awake , any more ?
I’m 21 weeks old today ,
Mommy . Aren’t you proud of me ? We’re going somewhere today , and it’s
somewhere new . I’m excited . It looks like a hospital , too . I want to be a
doctor when I grow up , Mommy . Did I tell you that ? I hope you’re as
excited as I am . I can’t wait .
…Mommy ,
I’m getting scared . Your heart is still beating , but I don’t know what
you are thinking . The doctor is talking to you . I think something’s
going to happen soon . I’m really , really , really scared , Mommy . Please
tell me you love me . Then I will feel safe again . I love you !
Mommy ,
what are they doing to me !? It hurts ! Please make them stop ! It feels
bad ! Please , Mommy , please please help me ! Make them stop !
Don’t
worry Mommy , I’m safe . I’m in heaven with the angels now . They told me
what you did , and they said it’s called an abortion .
Why ,
Mommy ? Why did you do it ? Don’t you love me any more ? Why did you get
rid of me ? I’m really , really , really sorry if I did something wrong ,
Mommy . I love you , Mommy ! I love you with all of my heart . Why don’t you
love me ? What did I do to deserve what they did to me ? I want to live ,
Mommy ! Please ! It really , really hurts to see you not care about me , and
not talk to me . Didn’t I love you enough ? Please say you’ll keep me ,
Mommy ! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and
grow up and be a doctor . I don’t want to be here , I want you to love me
again ! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong . I love
you !
I love you , Mommy .
Every abortion is just …
One more heart that was stopped .
Two more eyes that will never see .
Two more hands that will never touch .
Two more legs that will never run .
One more mouth that will never speak .
old . You’re going to find out about me soon , though , I promise . Let me
tell you some things about me . My name is John , and I’ve got beautiful
brown eyes and black hair . Well , I don’t have it yet , but I will when
I’m born . I’m going to be your only child , and you’ll call me your one
and only . I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly , but we have each
other . We’ll help each other , and love each other . I want to be a doctor
when I grow up .
You
found out about me today , Mommy ! You were so excited , you couldn’t wait
to tell everyone . All you could do all day was smile , and life was
perfect . You have a beautiful smile , Mommy . It will be the first face I
will see in my life , and it will be the best thing I see in my life . I
know it already .
Today was the day you told Daddy . You
were so excited to tell him about me ! … He wasn’t happy , Mommy . He kind
of got angry . I don’t think that you noticed , but he did . He started to
talk about something called wedlock , and money , and bills , and stuff I
don’t think I understand yet . You were still happy , though , so it was
okay . Then he did something scary , Mommy . He hit you . I could feel you
fall backward , and your hands flying up to protect me . I was okay … but I
was very sad for you . You were crying then , Mommy . That’s a sound I
don’t like . It doesn’t make me feel good . It made me cry , too . He said
sorry after , and he hugged you again . You forgave him , Mommy , but I’m
not sure if I do . It wasn’t right . You say he loves you … why would he
hurt you ? I don’t like it , Mommy .
Finally ,
you can see me ! Your stomach is a little bit bigger , and you’re so
proud of me ! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes , and you
were so so so happy . You sing to me , too . You have the most beautiful
voice in the whole wide world . When you sing is when I’m happiest . And
you talk to me , and I feel safe . So safe . You just wait and see , Mommy .
When I am born I will be perfect just for you . I will make you proud ,
and I will love you with all of my heart .
I can move my
hands and feet now , Mommy . I do it because you put your hands on your
belly to feel me , and I giggle . You giggle , too . I love you , Mommy .
Daddy
came to see you today , Mommy . I got really scared . He was acting funny
and he wasn’t talking right . He said he didn’t want you . I don’t know
why , but that’s what he said . And he hit you again . I got angry , Mommy .
When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt ! I promise to protect
you . Daddy is bad . I don’t care if you think that he is a good person , I
think he’s bad . But he hit you , and he said he didn’t want us . He
doesn’t like me . Why doesn’t he like me , Mommy ?
You didn’t talk to me tonight , Mommy . Is everything okay ?
It’s
been three days since you saw Daddy . You haven’t talked to me or
touched me or anything since that . Don’t you still love me , Mommy ? I
still love you . I think you feel sad . The only time I feel you is when
you sleep . You sleep funny , kind of curled up on your side . And you hug
me with your arms , and I feel safe and warm again . Why don’t you do that
when you’re awake , any more ?
I’m 21 weeks old today ,
Mommy . Aren’t you proud of me ? We’re going somewhere today , and it’s
somewhere new . I’m excited . It looks like a hospital , too . I want to be a
doctor when I grow up , Mommy . Did I tell you that ? I hope you’re as
excited as I am . I can’t wait .
…Mommy ,
I’m getting scared . Your heart is still beating , but I don’t know what
you are thinking . The doctor is talking to you . I think something’s
going to happen soon . I’m really , really , really scared , Mommy . Please
tell me you love me . Then I will feel safe again . I love you !
Mommy ,
what are they doing to me !? It hurts ! Please make them stop ! It feels
bad ! Please , Mommy , please please help me ! Make them stop !
Don’t
worry Mommy , I’m safe . I’m in heaven with the angels now . They told me
what you did , and they said it’s called an abortion .
Why ,
Mommy ? Why did you do it ? Don’t you love me any more ? Why did you get
rid of me ? I’m really , really , really sorry if I did something wrong ,
Mommy . I love you , Mommy ! I love you with all of my heart . Why don’t you
love me ? What did I do to deserve what they did to me ? I want to live ,
Mommy ! Please ! It really , really hurts to see you not care about me , and
not talk to me . Didn’t I love you enough ? Please say you’ll keep me ,
Mommy ! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and
grow up and be a doctor . I don’t want to be here , I want you to love me
again ! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong . I love
you !
I love you , Mommy .
Every abortion is just …
One more heart that was stopped .
Two more eyes that will never see .
Two more hands that will never touch .
Two more legs that will never run .
One more mouth that will never speak .
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